Revision

Even though today is one of those days where I should have kept myself busy, instead I chose to be slow and lazy and delay everything to the last moment. I have watched two films, one of them will certainly stay in my mind for a while and I have tidied the home I currently live in. It is temporary I know. It is not because I am sure that the relationship with Mr. Moon is temporary, far from that, it is more to do with the knowledge that I should cling to nothing for its own sake. Mr. Moon is lovely and loving and I hope he will remain so for very long time, as really what forever is - if not just a really, REALLY long time?

I became to preoccupied with the home. That is what I mean. I became preoccupied and too attached to something whilst so lovely it is only temporary. And here I am at my desk in our decent bedroom, there is nothing really wrong with it, appart from the mildew growing in the corners and that can be sorted come summer. But, it is just a room, it does not represent who I or Mr. Moon is, who we are as two people together, and the furnishings do not tell the story of our lives.

I hope I can hold on to that feeling. Just like everytime when I take a sip of drink from my Portland mug, I know, my friend was here and the mug was left behind, the physical presence was temporary, the emotional presence is permanent. So whilst my degree, the dishes, the wages and the electric bill are all important in their own right, they all become insignificant over time quite respectively. At the end of the day I want to hold on to what is permanent and what will stay with me for ever.